So I don't have a title for this song either... I think I have commitment issues and naming a song is too much for me. Who knows? Well, this is another depressing song. I seem to be writing a lot of them lately, and I apologize for that. Nobody wants to listen to someone whine all the time. Maybe I'll work on writing something a bit happier... I'm just so uninspired lately. Anyways, I don't know how the lyrics will read for you guys. I played with a lot of different rhythms in this song, so the lyrics don't exactly flow conventionally. So *drumroll* here it is!


Untitled Song # 80 Billion

Now you're broken
And you're hoping
That one day you'll be okay

But you're not worth it
You don't deserve it
You're not good enough to be happy

While they're all out living life
She's stuck alone inside of her head
No emotion left to scream
Dwelling on her broken dreams
And lost innocence

Then you realize
That your life
Has become a sad cliche

And you know it
Will keep growing
You didn't used to be this way

While they're all out living life
She's stuck alone inside of her head
No emotion left to scream
Dwelling on her broken dreams
And lost innocence

And then the apathy sets in

And she says
I swear to God if I could,
I would wake up before 4 at night
I'd do something productive with my life

But I can't
I just can't
I'm not capable of that much

And she prays
For the strength
To be whole

Cuz I'm not the person that I used to be
I'm a shell,
But not the kind you find by the sea
I'm less interesting

And she goes to bed alone
And she hopes that He'll be home
To help her feel alright
Or just to feel anything at all

I'll Maybe Come Up With a Clever Title Someday...

I have some new lyrics for you guys; I can't decide if I like them or totally hate them. I love the melody, but I'm still working on what I want to do with instrumentals, if I want to add on to the lyrics... if I want to keep it short. I just don't know. But basically, this song will eventally be a sort of thank you to life for giving me the crap that's just made me stronger. It's been a hard year; the words are probably stupid and corny, but they're honest. Well, yeah... :)


I am alive
And I am whole
I've been rebaptized
Into someone loveable

I'm not afraid
And I'm not sad
There is no blue-eyed innocence
She's gone, she's dead

I could've never imagined the pain you caused
My broken heart, my broken trust
But you made me stronger
I grew up
And I'm happy now

I'm someone new
I am not me
My cheeks are wet
Now that I'm not afraid to feel

You left these wounds
But now they're scars
They're proof that I've lived and I've loved
And that I can carry on

I could've never imagined the pain you caused
My broken heart my broken trust
But you made me stronger
I grew up
And I'm happy now
I'm happy now



It's short... I may add on. I just don't know, but I felt like I wanted to post what I have.

Bright Eyes: A Soundtrack to a Successful Life

So I decided that since I have nothing exciting going on in my life as of recent, I would share with you some musical aspects of Alora's life. I'm going to write about music that has changed my life and why I love it, and why you should follow my example and love it too. :) Maybe nobody cares about my music recommendations, but I love hearing myself talk (er, watching myself type?) so I don't care! It's really been the rainiest, gloomiest, most depressing day today. Really, I almost cried when I saw a spider on my floor turned on its back and unable to turn back over. (Of course, this was an observation made from on top of my bed, as far as possible from it) Nevertheless, I was sad for a spider... A SPIDER!! After coming to the conclusion that it truly was a gloomy day (and playing the most depressing songs I know on the piano), I decided to turn on my go-to "Sad Days" playlist. However, I skipped straight through most of it till I got to my chunk of Bright Eyes tracks. That's my subject for today: Bright Eyes. If you have not listened to them, I highly recommend you do that very soon. Bright Eyes is a must for a successful life. But before you go any further or jump on the Bright Eyes train as you're reading this, I'm warning you that you have to be in the right mood to experience the epicosity of this band for the first time, otherwise you'll probably just throw up and think it's the worst thing known to man. The band is fronted by an incredible incredible man named Conor Oberst. He founded the band in the mid nineties, and recently put out an album in March of this year. (One Jug of Wine, Two Vessels) Their sound is definitely classified as Indie...it's definitely very unique and marked by lots of mellow guitar and Conor's piercing, emotional voice. This voice... this amazing voice is the reason why most people turn away from such a great musical listening experience. I will just be blunt: Conor Oberst does not have the voice of a god... in the traditional sense. It's not his singing ability that captures the heart of a Bright Eyes fan, it's his ability to portray emotion so strongly with his singing that does. This, along with his ability to spit out this awe-striking poetry in every song, is what has won my heart, and continues to do so with every listen. Basically, in my opinon, if you want to feel any sort of emotion, listen to Bright Eyes - happy, sad, angry, it doesn't matter, there's a song that will say it perfectly. Some of my favorites:

"But now we speak with ruined tongues, and the words we speak aren't meant for anyone; it's just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance, but there was once you. You said you hate my suffering and you understood, and you'd take care of me. You'd always be there... but where are you now?" -Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh

"Yours is the first face that I saw, I swear I was blind before I met you. I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been, but I know where I want to go.... You said "This is the first day of my life. I'm so glad I didn't die before I met you, but now I don't care. I could go anywhere with you and probably be happy." -First Day of My Life

"But once you knew a girl and you named her lover, danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer. Autumn came, she disappeared. You can't remember where she said she was going to, but you know that she is gone, 'cause she left you a song that you don't want to sing. Singing 'I believe that lovers should be chained together, thrown into a fire with their songs and letters, left there to burn, left there to burn in their arrogance.'" -Perfect Sonnet


These are just a very few examples of some of the amazing lyrics of Conor Oberst. I just.... you have to listen to them if you're unfortunate and haven't. And if you have, I'm pretty sure you agree. I've never heard a song by them I've hated, but I do have my favorites:

Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh
First Day of My Life
Perfect Sonnet
Bowl of Oranges
Lover I Don't Have to Love
It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends
You Will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will.
At the Bottom of Everything
Something Vague
Gold Mine Gutted


So... yep! Comment down below. Listen to Bright Eyes, love it, listen again and again. :)